MY DREAMS

people always talking about their dreams. " oh, mlm tdik aku mmpi aku jmpa opuan bh". typical. "mlm tdik ku mimpi aku jln jln d pasa tp xtwuk cmney mok balit". nearly nightmare. "mlm tdik aku mmpi aku knak kepong.. llah ku brekot lam mimpi ya". nightmares. "mlm tdik aku mimpi aku tdo". stupid ass. but i'm not gonna type about those types of dreams. now, i wanna tell you what my dreams are (what i wanna be).

when i was a kid (i dont remember what my age that time) i still remember that i wanna be a 'polis buduk' (security guard). what a stupid dream right? ahaha. but by that time, for me it was a cool job cause they carry shotguns. ahaha. my mom once told me that "apahal kw mk jd polis buduk? bet kw crik len jk.. polis ka bomba ka askar ka" so i chose to be a fireman. you wanna know why? cause i love their trucks. ahaha. big red strong looking ladderly full hose trucks. ahaha. if i'm not mistaken that time i was 7 years old (darjah 1 in SRB Agama (MIS) Miri now SK Agama Miri).

when i was 9 (darjah 3) i wanna be a scientist. i have no idea why but by that time, i used to do experiments on grasshopper and frogs. ahaha. for real i cut the frog in half. ahaha. with the kitchen knife, which i throw away every time i did the operations. ahaha. my mom get angry at me and said "ney suma pisok ney? apa dplah kw ngn pisok ya? mcm mcm jk kw tok.. g blaja nun". but i'm not. still doing experiments. ahaha. not long after that, i stopped. cause i almost kill a kitten. by that time i realised that maybe if i will be a scientist, i'll be a mad one. ahaha. so i changed my mind and chose to be an astronaut. i ask my mom to buy me books about space, planets and stuffs. i love to read during that time (but not now). i rad all those books everyday. but its so boring and i quit my dream, again.

when i was 11(darjah 5) i wanted to be a guitarist, a rockstar. well, during that time, my cousins (all boys n all of them are older than me) know how to play guitar, except me. well i try to learn and i ask my dad to buy me one. but his questions makes me sad "phal kw mok bli guitar? kw mok jd pnyanyi? kw mk jd artist? let me tell you something young man.. artist ssh mk idup.. mk keja keras.. n i dont want you to be one". what would you feel when your dad said something like that to you? of course you'll cry so do i. imagine a young kid's dream crush with only less than a minute speech. i till remember the moment until now.

learning from every dreams that i dreamt, i start to realise something. i dont wanna be like my parents. i want to challenge them no matter what. my dad is a Safety Manager and my mom was a nurse (she used to work at Miri Polyclinic but she resigned last year cause they all moved oversea). "cba kw jd doctor.. bgus bh keja ya.. kw kn mok tlg org.. kw kn mok jd hero" my aunt told me and i directly said no. most of my family members are all in medical department. so i dont wanna join them. i wanna change this family work business. so i decided to be an engineer. that is what i'm aiming till now. this time, my dream will come true and will defeat them with my bear (my sis teddy bear's paw) hands. ahaha.

but now, i got another plans. when i was 18 (waiting for SPM results) i bought a guitar without my dad's permission. i dont care anymore. i wanna learn how to play and i will rock. ahaha. but luckily, he doesn't mad at me. he just sit next to me and watch me play guitar (but that time i really really dont know how to play the god damn guitar). but now i know how to play and i know a lot of songs (mostly Greenday, Fall Out Boy, Arctic Monkeys, The Strokes and some more). but 1 day, my dad told me "mn kw bna bna mk men guitar, bpk xmlarang.. tp kw msti igt.. kw msti blaja for your own good for your own future.. its all yours now.. you know how to think wisely, dont you? you can guitar for fun but you must fulfil your dream first". now that is what i wanna hear for a long long time. ahaha. so now, i have 2 goals in my life. first, i wanna be an engineer. second, i wanna ROCK. ahaha.

but still strange isn't it? others when they were kids they always dreamt about superheroes and stuffs. but i have no idea why i didn't? i am strange, am i? ahaha.

BYE,
rusy